Now, don't think I am ungrateful. I fully appreciate my blessings at having access to this modern miracle and insurance to pay for it and a body that is capable of (mostly) tolerating it. But at this point in treatment I feel like maybe I should have high-tailed it to that Mexican clinic and tried to cure this cancer with organic vegetable juices and coffee enemas. It couldn't be as bad as this.
Don't worry, I also appreciate the fact that my tumor is dissolving much like an Alka Seltzer in a glass of water.
|Plop, plop, fizz, fizz, Oh what a relief it is...|
Okay, maybe not exactly like that, but it is what I imagine is happening in there. Anyway, I won't be border-bound any time real soon.
So ultimately the big drawbacks with chemo are:
- you lose your hair. ok, not so much your leg hair, but hair on head? Yes. Bald chemo head, not exactly my best look. and I am oh so challenged with tying on scarves. The big bonus is no shampoo, conditioner, de tangling, etc. Not entirely a fair trade.
- the fatigue... oh my gosh. the fatigue is unbearable. I personally slept all night Monday, all day Tuesday and all night Tuesday. and guess what - I am soooooooo tired right now.
- the nausea. The anti-nausea drugs are great, I haven't barfed at all (sorry if that is too graphic), but I feel perpetually hung over (without the fun of the night before) and no food sounds yummy.
- the time suck. This is one I hadn't really thought about but since we live in the middle of beautiful nowhere, it takes us 3 hours to get to the treatment center. then another 3-4 hours there and then 3 hours home. A BIG DAY.
- weight loss- a direct benefit of all food sounding and smelling gross.
- scarves- everyone wants to get you a beautiful scarf- that is definitely fun!
- um... at a loss for a number 3.
Hopefully, I will have something different than cancer and cancer treatment to talk about next time. Maybe how Magpie jumps off the dock into the river all by herself!!!